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Ok, I don't believe I've properly updated the last time. There was a lot more that had happened that I just didn't mention. Well, here's what all has happened withing the last few months. I no longer work at Food City. That's right, I got fired. Yep, the girl everyone said got by with everything is now no longer as sneaky as she used to be. This stupid ass girl called her mom and told her to call back and complain about me, so she did. Now I'm poor and have nothing to do with my time. Just another thing to add to my list of crapfully crappy crap life. LOL
In other news, me and Niki are no longer friends. I guess she's pissed because I am best friends with her ex boyfriend. Well, she can just get over it now can't she? I don't judge her based on the crackheaded friends she has. It's not like we're dating or anything, we're just friends. But whatever, that's why females suck.
I met someone. OMG WHAT A SURPRISE! lol. He is beyond amazing. My heart melts just thinking about him. I know I've said it all before but hopefully, it's different this time. I'm working harder on this one. ;-)
My mom and I seem to be ok right now. We don't fight no where near as much as we use to. We still have our differences but it's all good. I'll be gone soon enough.
Ok, well, I think I mentioned all the major updates. I shall write again soon. :-)
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[09 Mar 2005|08:33pm] |
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I'm updating. Dur! It's been awhile. Not much has went on really. I noticed some people leaving me comments. MAN THEY ARE SO COOL! I wanna be just like them when I grow up. /sarcasm
I haven't talked to Ryan in a while. I haven't talked to anyone that I used to talk to anymore. I just started hanging out with new people and I've gotten to know this one guy pretty well and I like him a lot. But, I'm not going to let this one get to me like the others did. I'm just taking things slow. I knew that the last one would blow up in my face but I'm not letting this one.
Well, I have no idea what to write about and I really don't care either. I may write again later if I feel like it.
Oh...and for the dumbfucks. Don't you know that you're not effecting me at all? You're little comments are gay. Get a life and get over it.
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Well, my dad decided to call for the first time in three years today. I'm surprised to see that he still remembers I exist. I believe I've mentioned the way my dad is a few posts back. It amazes me how he thinks he can just come in and out of my life like that. Everytime he calls, he thinks I should forget everything he's ever done to me. He told me he's sending me a birthday card and a christmas card with money in it. I told him that I would rather have him more involved in my life then have him send me money. I don't want his stupid money or gifts. I want his attention. We even talked about graduation. I told him I was going to send him an invitation and he said he wouldn't come because my mom would put him in jail. That's crap, my mom isn't going to do all that on my graduation day. Even though the police are looking for him I have the choice on whether or not he goes. I think he deserves to because of all the things he's done to me in the past 18 years. For everytime he hit me, said things to hurt my feelings, or lied to me, he deserves a year in prison. In that case he'd have a million years in prison. But, my graduation day isn't going to be the day.
I asked him to start writing me letters but he didn't like that idea. I asked him to call more often and he said he'd try. I asked him to just for once be a dad and he didn't know what to say. What did I ever do to him to make him not want to be around me? Am I that bad that my own family doesn't want anything to do with me? ::sigh::
Anyway, the only positive thing in my life right now is Ryan. Ryan is the guy I was talking about in my last entry. It's amazing how much I already care for him and that the love I have for him is unlike anything I've ever felt before. I'm just waiting for this to blow up in my face like it does every time. I try not to think these thoughts but after being hurt by CJ and Johnothan, I can't help but think Ryan could be the same way. Things are always good in the beginning but somehow I always manage to fuck it up. I'm going to try real hard to make what Ryan and I have (whatever that may be) work. It's hard to believe that feelings towards him are stronger than they were for CJ and almost stronger than they were for Johnothan. Johnothan was damn near perfect and like always I fucked it up. I guess after he got to know the real me he changed his mind about me. No one seems to like me after they get to know me. I guess that's why I like Ryan so much is because he knows everything there is to know and he still likes me. I really can feel myself falling deeper and deeper in love with him. I don't even think about any of the other guys hardly anymore. It's just Ryan. I hope and pray that I don't mess this up. God, please let this one be real. I love him so much. I couldn't handle it if this whole thing ended like the others. ::sigh:: Just please God...please?
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[14 Dec 2004|02:16am] |
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It's been a really long time since I've written anything in here. I went to xanga for a little while and since I can't write at school I figured screw that.
Anyway, me and Johnothan are over, me and CJ are for sure over, and for all I know they can all kiss my ass. I'm sure there is someone out there that likes me and always will. I just gotta find em. There is this one guy I'm talking to but I'm still kinda worried about whether it will work out or not. Like I've said before, it just seems to good to be true. It's basically the same thought I had with Johnothan and you see how that ended up. But who knows? Maybe this time it will be different.
My mom and I are still fighting worse then ever. She told me I have to have a place to live by June. I want out before then. I don't know where I'll go but I want out. It's just complete bullshit these days. I don't know how much more I can take. The good news is the suicide thoughts are gone. The only thing I want to do is run away now.
My b-day is wednesday...which is technically tomorrow. I'll be 18. I was excited but my mom fucked that up for me too. I don't even want to go into detail with all that shit though. It just upsets me and right now I'm in a good mood. After all...I'm talking to the greatest guy that ever walked right now. <3 <3 <3 <3
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If you are reading this I hate you
thanks and have a nice day
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Ok, well as most of you people pretty much know, I have this constant thought of killing myself. No matter what I do it won't go away. I've even thought about how I would do it and if I decided to leave a note what it would say. I think I seriously need some help. I tried talking to my mom yesterday and I told her exactly how I felt and she told me that I was just feeling sorry for myself and that I was only thinking about myself. THAT IS BULLSHIT!!! As a matter of fact the main reason that I want to do it is because I believe that if I did then my mom would have less shit to worry about. I mean, she doesn't seem happy at all. Yesterday she just told me that I was stupid and now that I've told her how I felt she is going to have more to worry about. Well, no matter what I do I seem to fuck everything up. I mean, what am I supposed to do. Should I just run away from home? Should I just go ahead and kill myself (which is pretty much the idea I have in mind right now) Actually, I wonder how the whole running away thing would work? I mean if I did that then I wouldn't have to worry about the going to hell part. But where would I go? I mean, I sure as hell wouldn't go to my grandparents because they have enough shit to worry about and my mom is way to close to them so that wouldn't work out well either. So...where would I go? Now I have a new thought in mind. And just so you know...whoever may be reading this. I don't feel this way because my life is so horrible. I mean when I think about it I have a lot of stuff most other kids don't. I'm just want to know what it feels like to be "happy." Even the people that I know doesn't have what I have seem like they are really happy. It's not a material thing. I would give up pretty much everything I have to have the feeling of hapiness. Maybe running away or killing myself isn't the answer but I can't help but to have a feeling that things might be better if I just got away for a while. The killing myself part is just a way out, and I admit that is the pussy way to go...but hey, I can only take so much shit. The running away might work for a few months or so but eventually I would get back to the way I am now. So...what the hell should I do? I'm so lost... But anyway, maybe I will figure something out. By the way, I found this song that I really really like and I just thought I would put it in here. It explains a little about how I feel.
To my mother, to my father,It's your son or it's your daughter,
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn this up for you?
I sit locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhwere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!
The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decisions
All your insults and your curses make
me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel like I am nothing but
you made me, so do something
'Cause I'm fucked up because you are
Need attention, attention you couldn't give
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence get us nowhere!Gets us nowhere way to fast
Yeah, I guess you could say that was towards my mom. Don't get me wrong, I mean I love my mom to death even though I often don't show it or act like I appriciate the things she does for me. But I appriciate every bit of it even though it doesn't show. No one understands how I think or feel so It's really hard to explain. The thing about my mom that pisses me off the most is the fact that she is constantly putting me down over everything. I don't even know when the last time that we got along for a whole day and she didn't put me down not even once. I wish I knew what she wanted from me. I mean, last year in school I made honor roll, all a's and b's. I got nothing but a "hey good job" This year...I have one C on my report card so far and I got so much shit for it. I bet if I would have gotten all a's and b's again she wouldn't have said anything but "good job." I know that I should make good grades no matter what and shouldn't really get rewarded for them but it would be nice to get a little something.
WOW...I need to just shut the hell up and stop complaining. I hate it when I do that and I know other people do to. So...that's enough about all that bunch of shit. Anyway, I have so much more that I could write about...like guys or something but my hands are tired. Maybe tomorrow I will update on the whole guy thing.
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1. What would you do for a Klondike bar? Go to the store and knock it out of an old guys hand.
2. What are you thinking right now? I want to die and I love Johnothan
3. If you could be an ice-cream, what kind would you be and why? Superman because everyone loves superman ice-cream
4. Take a song title and then after wards, put the phrase "in my pants" in after it. (example: All the small things in my pants.) lmao this was my idea thank you very much! I refuse to answer this because you stole it!
5. What smells bother you? o.0 poop
6. What is your favorite time of year and why? Fall because everything is prettier and smells better
7. What is the meanest thing you have ever done? put tabassco sauce on someones lips while they were sleeping
8. What was the last movie you watched, and would you recommend it? Spiderman and yes. It was great!
9. If you could date a celebrity, who would it be and why? Vin Diesel becuase he is a sexy beast
10. When you die, what do you want your tombstone to say? I never really liked this place anyway
11. (fill in the blank) ______ could be better if it were more like ______ .
bananas could be better if it were more like strawberries
12. If you could have a theme song, what would it be? The Brady Bunch lol
13. What is your favorite pick-up line and does it work? Hey...wanna go have sex? I dunno I've never tried it
14. What is your favorite love song? I Swear By: All-4-One
15. (finish the sentence) You know it's bad when ______ . you want to die
16. What are your words of wisdom? If it moves don't eat it
17. What's the best news that you could possibly receive? Johnothan has come to see me
18. What's the worst news you could possibly receive? Johnothan hates me
19. What was the last kind thing you did for anyone? I don't remember
20. What song do you want played at your funeral? When I'm Gone
21. What kind of strange stuff do you enjoy? I like to smell things lol
22. What is the longest you have been without a shower? 1 day
23. Who is your favorite character in South Park? Butters
24. If you could be a cartoon character, who would you be and why? I would be Betty Boop because she is prettier then me. o.0
25. What super hero do you want to be the most? Spiderman
26. Why do we celebrate birthdays? I have no idea
27. What is the one thing that makes you mad the most? People in general
28. What is the worst feeling ever? Getting dumped
29. What is your favorite word or phrase? YAY
30. What is your favorite fruit? Cherries and Strawberries
31. Who is your historical idol? I don't think I have one
32. If you could switch mind and body with anyone of your friends, who would it be, and why? Niki because she is the coolest person I know
33. What is the biggest problem you have? I'm a fatass lol
34. If you could go back in time, what moment would you relive? The moment I first talked to Johnothan
35. Did you enjoy this questionnaire? yea ok whatever
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Today sucks so far. I woke up this morning and I feel like shit. Not in a sick way just in a way that I'm wishing I could die. I'm trying my best to hide it though. It's just that I feel like I'm nothing and it's never going to change. I really wish I didn't exist. I feel so empty or something. I can't even explain it. Not to mention that today would have been a year with me and CJ. That kinda hurts to think about but I know I'm over him It just hurts to think about what could have been if things were different. But on to better things if that is even possible.
Me and my mom got along for a little while yesterday but it didn't last long. That's all I'm saying about that situation.
You know what? I don't even feel like writing today. Maybe I will tomorrow.
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ABOUT YOU:
Your Name: Kasi Dawn Keith
Your Age: 17 almost 18
Your Height: 5'4
Natural Hair Colour: dirty blonde
Eye Colour: it changes
Number of Siblings: none thank god
Glasses / Contacts: neither
Piercings: yes, my ears are pierced 2 times
Tattoos: nope but i want one
Braces?: nope
FAVOURITE:
Color: pink and black
Band: linkin park, staind, and 3 doors down
Song: When I'm Gone
Stuffed Animal: my little white tiger that goes grrrrr...
Video Game: Final Fantasy
TV Show(s): Boy Meets World, Charmed, Reba,
Movie(s): Secret Window, Edward Scissorhands, Finding Nemo, and Every Child's Play movie ever made.
Book(s): Anything by V.C. Andrews
Food(s): Chicken and Cheese
CD Cover: It's what's on the inside that counts lol
Flower: Pink Roses
Scent: Candies
Animal(s): White tigers
Comic Book(s): I don't really read comic books
Cereal: Lucky Charms
Website: i dunno...there's a lot
Cartoon(s): Spongebob Squarepants lol
DO YOU:
Play An Instrument?: kinda sorta play the Keyboard
Watch TV More Than 60 Hours Per Week?: hell no, that is way to much for my little brain to handle
Like To Sing?: i like to but i can't
Have A Job?: Yes, Food Shity...I mean City
Have A Cell Phone?: nope, but if you want to buy me one I'll take it
Like To Play Sports?: uh no
Have A Crush On Someone?: Yes I do
Live Somewhere NOT In The United States?: nope
Have More Than 5 TVs In Your Home?: no I have 3
Have Any Special Skills / Talents?: haha, would you like to find out? *wink wink*
Exercise Daily? no but i should...i'm fat lol
Like School?: No! It fricken sucks ass man!!!
CAN YOU:
Sing The Alphabet Backwards?: I can until I get to Y
Stand On Your Tip Toes Without Wearing Shoes?: Yes..I can even do it while I'm typing...
Speak Any Other Languages?: a little bit of spanish...El borro sabe mas que tu!! haha that says the donkey is smarter then you
Gone A Day Without Food?: Yep
Stayed Up For More 24 Hours?: Yes and I loved every minute of it *wink wink*
Read Music, Not Just Tabs?: not really but i could learn pretty fast
Roll Your Tongue?: Yes! wanna see *sticks tongue out*
Eat A Whole Pizza?: Yeah, who couldn't?
HAVE YOU EVER:
Snuck Out Of Your House?: Yes but shhhh don't tell
Cried To Get Out Of Trouble?: Yeah but it never works
Been Lost In Your Own Town?: No, i'm not that stupid lol
Seen A Shooting Star?: Yes and it was great
Been To Any Other Countries Besides The Untied States?: No, but I wanna go to Africa
Had A Serious Surgery?: Nope sure ain't
Stolen Something Important To Someone Else?: No, but they've stolen from me..stupid fuckers!
Solved A Rubik's Cube?: almost...i will get it though
Gone Out In Public In Your Pajamas?: Yeah every chance I get
Cried Over A Girl?: yeah, when me and my best friend had a fight
Cried Over A Boy?: At least once a week
Kissed A Random Stranger?: Yeah on a dare
Hugged A Random Stranger?: Yep, who hasn't?
Been In A Fist Fight?: Yes and I kicked ass
Been Arrested?: Nope, I am a good kid...hehe
Done Drugs?: nope and never will
Had Alcohol?: Yeah, I've had mixed drinks
Laughed And Had Milk Come Out Of Your Nose?: Yea and it hurts like hell, BUT not as bad as cherry coke lol
Pushed All Buttons On The Elevator?: every time i am in one
Gone To School Only To Find Out You Had The Day Off?: ummm...no, that's retarded
Swore At Your Parents?: yes and got the hell beat out of me
Been To Warped Tour?: What's that? J/K! no i haven't been
Kicked A Guy Where It Hurts?: Yea and they deserved it
Been In Love?: i'm in love right now
Been Close To Love?: Yea and it hurts when you realize that you aren't
Been To A Casino?: Nope
Ran Over An Animal And Killed It?: no and if i did i would die
Broken A Bone?: Yeah, 3 of them in my wrist
Gotten Stitches?: yeah 2 times
Had A Water balloon Fight In Winter?: yea and it was great, cold though
Drank A Whole Gallon Of Milk In One Hour?: Not without chocolate
Made Homemade Muffins?: Yep
Bitten Someone?: yes and they liked it lol
Been To Disneyland / Disneyworld?: nope :(
More Than 4 Times?: not even once...grrr
Been To Niagra Falls?: no but i wanna
Burped In Someone's Face?: Yeah because they did it to me first
Gotten The Chicken Pox?: yea twice
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU:
Brushed Your Teeth?: this morning
Went To The Bathroom?: about an hour ago
Saw A Movie In Theaters?: ummm...i went with ryan to see spiderman the night it came out...don't remember when that was
Read A Book?: last week
Had A Snow Day?: ummm...last year when it snowed...dur dur dur
Had A Party?: when i was like 5
Had A Slumber Party?: that's retarded, my mom don't allow boys in my room lol
Made Fun Of Someone?: about a minute ago
Tripped In Front Of Someone?: yesterday
Went To A Grocery Store?: last night when i worked
Got Sick?: yesterday at work
Cursed: just a minute ago
PICK ONE:
Fruit / Vegetables: fruit
Black / White: black
Lights On / Lights Off: off
TV / Movie: movies in the dark lol
Car / Truck: cars for me to drive but trucks are sexy for guys
Body Spray / Lotion: lotion
Cash / Check: DUH...cash
Pillows / Blankets: If I can't have both then I don't want neither
Headache / Stomachache: headache
Paint / Charcoal: O.o wtf?! what do these even have in common?
Chinese Food / Mexican Food: chinese...it tastes so yummy
Summer / Winter: winter...snow weeeeee!!!!!
Snow / Rain: This should be common since...RAIN *wink wink*
Fog / Misty: misty fog lol
Meat / Vegetarian: Meat...vegetarians are stupid
Boy / Girl: Well I'm a girl but boys are way better. Girls are fucktarded
Chocolate / Vanilla: Vanilla and Chocolate swirl lol
Sprinkles / Icing: I lick icing and eat sprinkles so I want them both
Cake / Pie: Cake with icing and sprinkles
French Toast / French Fries: wtf?! this is the dumbest question...FRENCH FRIES
Strawberries / Blueberries: Strawberries *wink wink*
Ocean / Swimming Pool: I can't swim so I really could care less
Hugs / Kisses: both at the same time with a little more kissing
Cookies / Muffins: Cookies...yummy
Wallet / Pocket: Pockets i guess
Window / Door: Doors so I can escape
Emo / Goth: Neither really
Pink / Purple: Pink
Cat / Dog: Cat
Long Sleeve / Short Sleeve: long sleeve
Pants / Shorts: pants
Winter Break / Spring Break: winter break so i can play in the snow
Spring / Autumn: autumn
Clouds / Clear Sky: clouds mean rain and rain is awesome!!!
Moon / Stars: Stars *wink wink
FRIENDSHIP:
How Many Friends Do You Have?: well i only have 3 real friends
What Are Their Names?: Niki, Beth, and Steven
Have You Ever Liked One Of Your Friends?: yes that happens to me a lot and it ruins the friendship
Do You Have More Guy Friends Or Girl Friends?: guy friends, girls are stupid
Have You Ever Lost A Friend?: yea
Have You Ever Gone To An Amusement Park With A Friend?: Yeah and we had bunches of fun until I threw up on his shoe
What's An Inside Joke Between You And A Friend?: if i told it wouldn't be an inside joke now would it? nosey person you...
Have You Ever Gotten Into A Big Argument With A Friend?: Yea and I hated it
What's The Nicest Thing A Friend Has Ever Done For You?: um.. Steven talked me out of killing myself
Do You Miss Any Of Your Old Friends?: Yea sometimes I do
Do You Regret Anything You've Done To A Friend?: Yes everyday..don't really wanna talk about it
How Often Do You Spend Time With Your Friends?: Everyday at school or work
Do Any Of Your Friends Drive?: Yea, Beth does
Has A Friend Of Your's Died?: Nope and if they did so would I
What's The Dumbest Thing You've Ever Done?: Lose my virginity to CJ *tear*
What Do You Think Your Friends Think Of You?: I don't really know but I hope it's good
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP:
Have You Ever Been In Love?: yes i am in love right now
Do You Believe There Is Someone For Everyone?: Yes but I'm not sure that everyone finds their person
What Is Your Idea Of A Best Date?: As long as I am with the person I love then I don't really care what we do
What Was Your First Kiss Like?: it was weird...
Do You Think Love Is A Load Of Shit?: YES! Actually I do sometimes
What's The Best Experience You've Had With The Opposite Sex?: Kissing (name not mentioned) for over an hour...best kiss i've ever had too
Have You Ever Been Dumped?: Yes and it's the worse feeling ever. I would rather have pencils sticking out of my eyeballs
Have You Ever Dumped Someone?: Yeah
WORD ASSOCIATION:
Slippers: skipper the dolphen...don't ask
Hat: Blue
Hard: penis
Free: hand
Space: cowboy
Taste: johnothan
Good Charlotte: sings
Red: blood
Deep: cut
Heart: love
Cord: baby
Cheese: yummy
Rain: sex
Work: sucks
Pedal: metal
Head: ache
Bed: sex
Fluff: kitten
Hardcore: sex
Race: dale jr
Knife: sharp
Jump: bed
I....:
am: in love
want: Johnothan
need: Johnothan
crave: Johnothan
love: Johnothan
hate: people
did: nothing lol
feel: sad
miss: Johnothan
am annoyed by: my mom
would rather: be with Johnothan
am tired of: school
SILLY STUFF:
What Is Your Favorite Genre Of Music?: Country
What Time Is It Now?: 5:58
What Day Is It?: Wednesday
When's The Last Time You Called Someone?: last night
How Much Money Do You Have Right Now?: $0
Are You Hungry?: Nope...the thought of food right now makes me sick lol
Whatcha Doing?: answering questions and talking to Johnothan
Do You Like Parades?: Not really
Do You Like The Moon?: stars are better but I like the moon too
What Are You Going To Do When You're Done With This?: I'm not sure
Isn't Cup A Funny Word When You Repeat It Over And Over?: hahahaha NO
If You Had Any Magical Power, What Would It Be?: to read minds so I can hear what people really think of me
Have You Ever Had A Picnic?: Yep
Did You Ever Have One Of Those Skip-Its When You Were Young?: lol yea
What About Sock'em Boppers?: what the hell is that?
Are You Wearing Socks Right Now?: nope
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE:
funny?: I try to be
pretty?: not really
sarcastic?: Yeah all the time
lazy?: yep
hyper?: sometimes I am
friendly?: not really
evil?: yea lol
smart?: kinda sorta when I wanna be
strong?: yep...i bet i could kick your ass
talented?: not really
dorky?: yea lol
FOR OR AGAINST:
Suicide: i think it's a bad idea but i've tried it
Love: for
Drunk Drivers: against
War: for
Canada: wtf?!
United States: umm...for duh!
Rock Music: for
Gay Marriage: who cares
School: against!! lol
Surveys: against
Parents: against lol
Cars: for
Killing: for
Britney Spears: hell no
Coffee: i don't like coffee but other ppl do so i'm for it i guess
Pants: well i guess if i have to wear them i will
WOULD YOU EVER:
Sky Dive?: Yep, I hope to one day
Play Strip Poker?: Depends on who I'm with
Run Away?: Yep, and I will someday
Curse At A Teacher?: Yes
Not Shower For A Week?: No, I have to be clean
Ask Someone Out?: Yeah I have before...that's how I got CJ
Lie To Someone To Make Them Think Better Of You?: I have before
Visit A Foreign Country For More Than A Month?: Nope
Go SCUBA Diving?: I would if I could swim
Write A Book? Yep, I plan to do that one day
Become A Rockstar? Nope
Have Casual Sex?: Sure, why not?
What Time Is It Now?: 6:10
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[28 Sep 2004|10:26am] |
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Well, it's me again. I'm not really sure whether or not I want to keep a full time journal. I thought I did but I guess I don't. If that even makes any since...right now it probably doesn't. But I really don't care.
Anyway, not much has been going on. I met someone that I like a whole lot. He is probably the sweetest guy I have ever known. I think I'm in love and finally over CJ. Thank god! He gets on my stupid nerves. I see him every now and then and he is always being a dumbass. I'm glad I met someone else. It sounds crazy but I'm pretty sure I like this guy better then I ever did CJ.
But, that's enough about him. I'm at school right now so I really don't know what to write about. The only thing that comes to mind is that special someone and I don't think I have enough pages in this journal to explain how much I like this guy. So you pretty much get the point lol.
Well, I'm clueless about what else to write about so I'm gonna stop for now. Until next time....
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I'm mad! I went into work today and I thought I was going to have a good day because I was in a good mood and every thing was going alright and what do those stupid fuckers do? They put me on a regester. GRRR....I'm starting to really hate that stupid place now.
Nothing else has really happened today. I'm trying to talk to Ryan but he isn't talking much. I'd like to smack him sometimes. -_-
Well, I'm done now. Maybe I'll write more tomorrow.
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Well, it is too early to write much, but I'm bored and I can't go back to sleep for some reason. I just keep thinking too much I guess. I don't even know why I think the things I think I just think. o.O
So anyway, I gotta go into work here in a little bit. That sucks ass. I get to work with Niki today though. That should make the day go by quicker. We always find something to get into. lol
I don't know what I'm going to be doing later. Probably coming home and being bored some more. My life has got to be the most uninteresting one ever. But, hey, it has to get better sometime. That's what they keep telling me anyway. -_- They better not be wrong! -_-
Well, I'm just rambling about stuff that isn't important so I think I just need to shut up. I need to go take a shower anyway. Scrub a dub dub!! I love water!! Weee!
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[18 Sep 2004|10:23pm] |
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Good lord! It has been a while. Not as long as the last time but still. I bet you missed me...haha yea, I know you did. ^_^
Anyway, nothing is new. Life still sucks. School still sucks. Although, now I do not have trigonometry. I have study hall instead. That sucks too. lol. I don't really have any body that I hang out with there anymore. Me and Beth see less and less of each other everyday. So, yea, school is boring and I can't wait to get out of there. GOD! Next year = College...wow, me and college, I don't even know if I will make it.
Work is going pretty well. Me and Niki have became like best friends. We went to the mall the night before last and I've never laughed so hard in my life. I have met my twin! lol, Mine and her personalitys are pretty much exactly the same. The only difference is we look different and have different parents. o.O It's kinda freaky when I think about it. Anyway, at the mall I was acting so stupid as always. I hid behind this tree and everytime an old person would walk by I would scare them. Poor people, I kinda felt bad after I laughed my ass off. Then I spit on myself. HAHA! We were seeing who could spit the farthest and I went pretty far the first time and then she beat me so of course I had to try again. The I freaking spit on my shirt. It was so gross but so funny. Then this old psycho woman was standing in front of us and talking to herself and turned around, looked at us and laughed like some kind of crazy person. I fell out of the bench laughing and Niki cried from laughing so hard. People freak me out man...especially old ones. I had fun though.
I haven't seen CJ in forever. I'm guessing I won't be seeing him for quite a while. I kinda sorta not really but yea wish things could be different in a way. But, it's not going to be so I guess I just move on now...which I'm pretty sure I have. *cough* STEPHEN *cough* LoL, luv ya!
Well, I'm done writing for now. Until next time. If it moves don't eat it and have an aweful day!!
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[21 Aug 2004|10:14pm] |
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So, Stephen, I told you that I would dedicate a whole page to you in my journal so here it goes.
Before I said that Stephen was the player type. Maybe I was very wrong about that but ya know, I've heard things that made me think that. Well I'm not going to listen to those people anymore. I guess I'll just have to find out for myself. So, Stephen, I'm sorry I said that about you. Will you forgive me?
Now, I'm going to list some things that are good about Stephen since it is his page:
- He's hott
- good personality
- good since of humor
- nice butt lol
- good hair
- beautiful eyes
- nice teeth
- and I even like his voice
Now, I'm going to mention some bad things about Stephen:
- He lives too far from me
- He can't make up his mind!! (you know what I'm talking about)
- He gets mad too easy
So, Stephen, here is your page. Everything I said is true. You're a good guy. ^_^ Love ya babe!
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[20 Aug 2004|10:02pm] |
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School sucks! Work sucks! People suck! LIFE SUCKS PERIOD.
That's all I have to say.
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[13 Aug 2004|03:22pm] |
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Well, once again I have returned. I haven't been grounded this time I just haven't had time to write in here. Sorry for those who actually keep up with my life...I'll try to be better. LoL
My grandfather is in the hospital. He had to get his toe removed. No one seems to know what happened to it, they just know that if he kept it then it would spread to the rest of his foot and he would lose the whole foot. He had the surgery this morning and he is doing fine. I don't know how much longer he will be in the hospital. Also, I think he is getting rid of the goats. I think he should anyway.
I've been working more also. I'm a bagger now so it's not bad anymore. The only thing that bugs me is the fact that I have to go get buggys more then the boys do it. I think that they are making me do it more so I will become a cashier again and that is NOT going to happen. I would rather do buggys for 5 hours then stand at the stupid regester. ugh!
I seen CJ yesterday and he told me that he had another job at Shoneys. I really wish my mom would stop being the way that she is so I can get back with him. I miss him :(
OH! Jeremy!! You butthead! You didn't come into work yesterday. You lazy bum! LoL J/K...But I missed you. :( Oh well, life goes on. Luv ya buddy, lol.
Well I don't have anything else to write about so I'm going. See ya bye!
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I have nothing to write about! I'm just really bored. WEEEEE!!!!
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[09 Aug 2004|10:57pm] |
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Haven't been on in a couple of days. I've been grounded for my "attitude". Yeah...it sucked. Missed talking to my buddies!
Jeremy...I know you might be reading this and I just want to say. WHAT'S UP!? and HI! Love ya buddy? *mwah!* tee hee...you get to put up with me Wednesday and Thursday at work. Thursday we have the same schedule. Lucky you! lol
Well, not much has been going on for the past two days. Just workin and stuff like that. Been hangin out with my grandfather. We just went grocery shopping and stuff. I got butted by a goat in the nose. That hurt pretty bad but I'm still ok. lol
Well, I really don't have much to talk about. I'm feeling kinda down right now so I think I better go anyway.
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[06 Aug 2004|11:26pm] |
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Well, I just got back from the emergency room. This is the third night that I've had to go. My grandfather has something wrong with his foot now. We were up there for 6 hours on the first night, about 4 hours the second night, and tonight we were there for about 2 hours and he got tired of waiting on the doctor so he just got up and left. LOL..I thought that was great. I love my grandfather. I don't blame him for leaving. The stupid nurse put him in the TV room and of course they forgot that he was there so he just left. I hope that his foot gets better though. Although, now I know for sure where I get my "attitude" from. I have no problem with it either. My grandfather is cool as hell and I hope that I do grow up to be a female version of him...(not that I'm not a close copy already) The only thing that I hope that I don't inherit is the medical problems. lol
Well that's enough for now. Until next time...*mwah!*
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